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Crystal Healing Packs – Special Celebration!

Dear WordPress Family, I would like to invite you to join my Facebook page Reiki Rise and Shine Celebration Gift Giveaway:

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REIKI-INFUSED CRYSTAL HEALING PACKS GIVEAWAY.

I am giving away TWO of these packs & TWO of the loose crystal pairs.

Each pack has been Reiki infused, so has the natural combined crystal properties as well as the specific Reiki healing attuned to them.

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Please see full details of the Crystal healing Packs and the gift draw on my Facebook Page, which includes photos of each pack and their attuned healing properties, in the crystal photo album.  🙂  – Post is pinned to the top, can’t miss it!

I hope this may of interest to some of you, hence my posting this here.

Happy to answer any questions!

Draw will be done 31st October at 7:30pm UK time.

Light & Blessings

Reiki Heidi

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via (2) Reiki Rise & Shine.

A few random thoughts

I thought today that I would share with you some random thoughts of mine. Something slightly different, but I hope no less enjoyable.

JUST FOR YOU

As I was trawling about the city the other day, going into the Mall & seeing everyone strolling past with their multiple little purchase-bags, and the shops with their not so subtle signs of ‘% off’ and ‘ONLY £’, and all the bright displays of all the choices of things to buy, a thought struck me: 

Norwich Castle Mall

Norwich Castle Mall

This consumption, this need to buy new shiny things, this short-lived euphoria we get when we buy something new… is at least partially a psychological conditioning that says ‘I’m not good enough unless I have THIS shiny thing/THE LATEST in that…’ Buying what we NEED is different, but buying because it’s THERE and we are told ‘LOOK! LOOK AT ME! Aren’t I shiny and you want me and need me…?’ We give in to this desire and we feel better just for having something NEW… which soon becomes old, and doesn’t look so good just a few days or weeks on.

WELL WHAT IF – What if I had enough money to set up a shop… I would call it

JUST FOR YOU! 

Just For You ...

Just For You … (Photo credit: joselito.jb33)

 

And you would be welcome to come in, relax in one of our comfy chairs, take the weight off your feet, and have a chat with one of our friendly, empathetic, Here-For-You staff, whose sole purpose will be to see to your comfort & to chat with you if you like. To be a listening ear, or a teller of jokes; to compliment you & do what they can to ensure your self-esteem is nice and strong. Not to flatter; but genuinely and honestly.

Or you can take a seat in our side or back room, with the low lighting and the gentle music, to meditate, or think or watch the projector screen gently flowing through a series of pictures of wild and wonderful nature.

Maybe we could offer you a mini-foot massage, shoulder massage, or even a book of inspiring or thoughtful quotes, or of poetry. And we would offer you a coffee, tea or soft drink during your visit.

 

In short, a SELF-ESTEEM shop! And maybe there would be a flat fee for every visitor, nothing too steep, say £4/5 per visit, so that it doesn’t discount anyone who doesn’t have much money, but the fee will help to keep the shop going – and also prevent people who may want to abuse the service. And hopefully people would leave knowing just how great they are, by themselves, being themselves.

So… what do you think? Would you visit my little shop JUST FOR YOU!?

ENDLESS GREEN

I LOVE these pictures my partner took the other day on our walk to the park. Nature’s shades of green! 

A Park in Green

Wensum Park, Norwich

The Meeting of earth-green and water-green

The Meeting of earth-green and water-green

TURQUOISE

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Turquoise (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Lately I’ve begun to see – no, sense – the colour Turquoise during my Meditations and Inner works. It has become so frequent, that I looked it up… and here is what I found:

SPIRITUAL BODY MEANING
Serenity
PeacefulnessHumanitarian independence. The green in turquoise grounds psychic seeing in the heart, and then clear seeing (blue) can result. Responsibility for oneself, as in learning. The turquoise teaches the heart the right direction. The love and beauty in green expressing through the power of blue to create the new transcendental heartcalled Ananda Khanda.

MENTAL BODY MEANING
To trust intuition. Extremely adaptive and efficientUtopian outlookIdealismTeaching through mass communication and foreign languages. Talents for technical things. Attitude of self reliance.

EMOTIONAL BODY MEANING
Intuition
 having to do with feeling and knowingness. All the emotional domain, and its “expression” (the emotions themselves are in yellow and orange). Sympathy and empathyOptimismChildlike in the positive sense of the word. When imbalanced: Technophobia (fear of handling electronic apparatus) versus a talent for it.

Source at the bottom of the page.

Turquoise Lotus

Turquoise Lotus (Photo credit: downing.amanda)

Love, healing, generosity, emotion, feeling , the unconscious , intuition, individual responsibility .creativity , communication, self reliance , independence.
This color has more to do with feeling and creative expression than with rational thought.
  These  colors between  green and  blue  the shades of  turquoise, blue green and or aqua  relate to transformation,  evolution, change, sharing, waves,  metamorphosis,  transmutation, the inner teacher, and the spiritual heart or Thymus Chakra, a transpersonal chakra on the hara line (deeper aura level ) about midway between the heart and the throat. This is a chakra which connects us with energies of spiritual love and mystical communion and the Divine or God concept (however you name it ) as teacher and as  Sacred Lover and beloved.  These are shades that admit us to varied realms of  the trans-dimensional, meaning existence beyond time and space.

Source at bottom of the page

Well, I think that was it, all that I wanted to share with you. I hope you enjoyed these little random snippets, and your thoughts, comments & questions are most welcome.

Blessings be

Heidi

Sources

http://www.energyandvibration.com/colorturquoise.htm

http://pjentoft.com/Turquoise.html

Reiki Distant Healing

A few weeks ago, a lovely blogger friend Linda at litebeing Chronicles offered a trade: A distant Reiki Healing session, by me, for an Astrology Report from her. I leapt at the chance.

For me, doing the Distant Healing was a wonderful experience. Reiki energy is always a joy to work with, as it rewards and heals the healer as well as the recipient. Both parties come away feeling calm, content, and in a peaceful state of being. And as it is Universal energy, it can reach anywhere, from anywhere, it does not need direct hands-on healing to work. Distant Healing is just as effective as a direct healing.

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Hands of Reiki light

I know many people may be sceptical about this, and others may be interested in how it works and what effects are felt. Linda will be posting about her experience soon, so I won’t say anything further just now, but please pop along to her blog, as linked above, to read all about it!

I eagerly await my astrology report, & I will keep you updated of any interesting details!

For further information on Reiki in general, and Distant Reiki Healing, you can visit my website at:

www.reikiheidi.co.uk

 

Light & Blessings,

Reiki Heidi

 

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Reiki Website is Now Live!

Hello everyone,

After a lot of hard work I am pleased to announce that my website is now live – Please feel free to visit:

http://www.reikiheidi.co.uk

I know many of you will not be based in Norwich, UK, however there is general information re; Reiki, the chakras, and information on distant healing. Please feel free to have a browse and if you have any queries or comments, or you would like to book a Reiki session with me, please do get in touch and I will be happy to help.

Getting my business up and running has been hard work, but I have had wonderful support from my partner, and this is my dream. I am so pleased that it has now come true, and I will carry on working hard to keep the dream alive… because real dreams DO take dedication, commitment, and love.

And I would like to say a big THANK YOU to all my WordPress family who have been with me on this journey, inspired and encouraged me, & I hope your dreams are coming true too!

I will catch up with you all soon, just as soon as I can take the brakes off getting my business sorted!

Blessings be.

Reiki Facebook Page now up & running!

Well, it’s taken me a while, & the website is still under construction, but my Reiki page on facebook is at last created!

https://www.facebook.com/Norwichreiki

There is a very small link to it on the right hand side of this page (I don’t know why the pic is so small!), entitled ‘Reiki Heidi’. Please feel free to come and have a look. There is not much on there as yet, but I promise you there will be!

The Facebook page is, yes, to promote my new Reiki business, but also to bring together anyone & everyone interested in all things healing, Reiki, chakras, crystals, and so on. I want to create a real community of interested and like-minded people. The page is open to comments and queries, sharing information and experiences.

So whether you are a healer or not, whether you know anything about Reiki or not, whatever country and creed you are from… Be Well Come!

I hope to see you there, and I look forward to this new journey, and the new community and friends I hope to make along the way.

If you are on a new journey, or beginning something different, please do share… I’d love to hear your stories too.

Light & Blessings,

‘Reiki Heidi’.

 

A Leap Of Faith

'Trust' Osho Zen Tarot

‘Trust’ Osho Zen Tarot

‘Trust’ – Osho Zen Tarot Card

To leap off of the face of the cliff, not knowing what lies beneath you, but trusting that you will fly free.

This card exactly sums up my situation, attitude and behaviour right now. I am standing on the edge of the metaphorical cliff and I have taken the decision that very soon I shall jump.

I returned to work two weeks ago after being off sick for a long time. Last week, I came home from work and thought, ‘I can’t do this anymore’. The job, my job, no longer fits in with my life. It is not my Inner Truth, it does not call to my highest self. It is a lie. And I can no longer live that lie. So, very soon, I am handing in my resignation. I have no other job to go to.

I am, however, working hard to get my Reiki business ready. I will go self-employed, as a Reiki healer. My website is almost finished, Business cards, flyers and leaflets are next on the list, with of course in this day and age, a Facebook page and, quite possibly, another blog.

Although I am working hard to start promoting my Reiki healing, I cannot predict how many clients I will get and therefore my level of income. Therefore our financial situation may suffer. Despite this, my partner is 100% behind me, and, strange though it may seem, I have no doubt that things will work out!

Why? Why do I feel so confident? Because this is what I have wanted to do for a long time. Because I have been unhappy in my job for a long time. Because somewhere inside is a Voice, a Knowing, that this is right. And for no other reason at all.

Stagnation is the enemy of the human condition. It leads to unhappiness, misery, stress, negativity and regression. Change, Transformation, Growth are what strengthens a person and infuses the soul. It’s scary and sometimes painful – but that’s because we are making a change that will take us forward into new territory – and who knows what wonders lie on the other side?

If I don’t jump, I’ll never know. I have to jump – and fly.

For my sanity, my curiosity, my Inner truth, I have to take this leap of faith.

Have you ever taken a leap of faith?

Soul Sickness: Misery or Enlightenment?

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My continued absence from the blogging world has not been by choice, but necessity. The last few months have been a really rough time for me, but I have come out of it feeling like – and thank you for this metaphor, lindalitebeing! – The Phoenix from the ashes. I am pleased to report that my current outlook on life is optimistic. Full of hope, determination, excitement, and dreams becoming fulfilled.

So let me take you back to the beginning – and explain what I mean about ‘Soul Sickness’.

Have you ever had an event in your life that seemed utterly depressing? Where you felt that you were at the bottom of a well with no ladder? You sit and brood, thinking all is lost, feeling hopeless, useless even, devastated… And then, somehow, after a while, you come out of it – and find a new lease of life. A completely new direction, a wholly new you, and you think, ‘wow! This would never have happened if that horrible event hadn’t happened first.’ This is soul sickness.

What do I mean by that? The Inner you, your soul, knows what you really want – or need. It knows where your life should be going. But the Outer you, the physical you, is happy to pootle along in that boring job, or in that drab relationship, or in that drug or drink induced befuddlement – because this easy and comfortable. Changing, even if we know it is for the best, is HARD. It requires effort. And it’s SCARY. But sometimes, events force our hand. All things happen for a reason. If devastation did not happen to us – we would not have the impetus to make the changes we know we want/need to make. Our Soul takes a hand in life’s events to lead us to where It knows we should be.

Don’t call it Luck. Don’t call it chance. Don’t give the Kudos to other people – thank yourself. YOU made the change, whether you know it or not.

For myself, this is what happened: As you may know if you have read previous posts, I have been battling with ‘low mood syndrome’ for quite some time. I was doing ok, too, refusing to let it beat me, despite the hold it had on me and my life. Then the place where I worked made changed my job without any due care or consideration to personal requirements, needs, feelings or anything else. I – and others – were really angry. I went home and ranted, then, as normal, went to work the next day. Imagine my surprise then, when, on logging in to the system, I had a panic attack. This was the first time in my life I had experienced a panic attack, and it was truly frightening. Again, the managers seemed unsympathetic and again, did not handle it well, until I eventually just told them I was going – walked out of the office.

Thank goodness I have an empathetic, understandable, GP, who saw me the same day and signed me off straightaway. This was at the end of May. I am still off work now. It has taken me until now to recover – and I am still not wholly healed. Since being off work I continued to experience panic attacks, then a continual sense of heightened anxiety. I’ve been constantly tired, sleeping too much, and my concentration has been shot. All this because of a job!

I have done a lot of thinking, a lot of reviewing. Throughout my time off, despite all this rubbish going on with me, I have achieved more than I have in the last few years: I’ve completed something I’ve wanted to do for a long time, and am awaiting a reply (I don’t want to say any more yet as I don’t want to jinx it!), I’ve applied for new jobs, mainly with charities, AND… I AM NOW SET UP AS A REIKI HEALER! Something I have yearned to do for years, but never felt that ‘the time was right’. I have my insurance, I have a clinic to work from, and Neometheus and I are designing business cards and a website! I am So excited about this, I have more passion in me than I can remember having in a long time. I have a GOAL, a FOCUS, a REASON for Being!

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And none of this would have happened if things hadn’t gone wrong at work, and if I hadn’t felt so down. The idea of being down and feeling rubbish for the foreseeable future was loathsome to me. I didn’t WANT to feel like that. And I didn’t WANT to keep working where I was – something I knew several years ago, but just never bothered doing anything about.

I am now at the place that I should have been a long time ago. It took a great big push and shove from my Inner Self to get me here. I never had the courage to follow my mind, heart, and soul. And now I do.

Experiencing Soul sickness is miserable and terrifying – but it is a cleansing of the Self, and if you listen to your Self and have the courage to follow your instinct/heart/dreams – then you will rise like a Phoenix from the ashes, and begin to see the world anew.

Wishing you all the courage and strength to follow your life’s path.

Light & Blessings

7:11 Breathing: What it is and how to do it

Today I would like to share with you a new skill that a wonderful lady I met this week has taught me, and it has made such a difference to my thinking and being already, I really think it is worth sharing with as many people as possible.

Have you heard of 7:11 breathing? If you have, do you know what it is? And if you know what it is, do you know what it is actually doing? Well I hope to explain this simply and effectively. Anyone can do it, and the wonder of it is, you can do it anytime, anywhere, and it only takes a few minutes!

Simply put, 7:11 breathing is a way of breathing, and breathing out for longer than you breathe in. Why? Breathing in is the Alert Mode of our body system, and breathing out is the Relaxation Mode of our body system. So when we breathe out longer than we breathe in, we are helping our bodies to relax and calm down. This is particularly helpful if you are feeling stressed, tense, or your mind is so busy that you are beginning to feel wound up because you cannot let go of all those bothersome thoughts.

And here’s another thing: When our body tenses up, through stress or anger, it can take up to 20 minutes for the body to come back to a relaxed state. So if you have ever wondered why you are holding on to angry feelings, or cannot let go of certain thoughts or the stress you are feeling – it’s because you haven’t given your body enough time and space to be able to fully calm down and reset again. This is also a great example of how the body and mind are linked: When we think about things that makes us stressed or angry, or otherwise emotional – what does the body do? Right – it reacts to those thoughts. And you may not even be aware of it at the time, but with these thoughts, the body begins to tense up. Once the body has reacted in this way, it becomes hard to let go (Sound familiar?) 7:11 breathing releases the tension and stress in both the body and the mind, allowing both to relax and come to a ‘reset’ state of total calm. I did this for just a few minutes with the lady who taught it to me, and those few minutes were enough to completely change my body’s reaction, and, even more wonderful – I stopped thinking! My mind was in a state of total relaxation; no worrying or busy thoughts trying to insert themselves into my brain. As I say, a few minutes of doing this can help immensely – if you can find 20 minutes to do this, it will have an even bigger effect.

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Ready to try? Okay here we go then: sit, lie or stand comfortably, whatever feels natural to you. Make sure you are in a relaxed position. Breathe normally to start with, just be aware of your breathing. After a few breaths, pause slightly at the end of your out breath, and then as you breathe in, breathe up from your stomach, all the way up… (known as diaphragmic breathing), feel your chest swelling with your breath, as much as you can comfortably. Try and count how long you are breathing in for. Now, breathe out and count, try to breathe out for longer than you breathed in. To start, don’t worry by how much, just make sure you are breathing comfortably, and get the hang of breathing out longer than in. The idea is that, as you become more practised, you breathe out for 4 more than you breathe in – hence, ‘7:11 breathing’. As you are doing this, keep your shoulders relaxed, your whole body relaxed. Do it as long as it is comfortable. A little to start with, to get used to it. When you have finished, take note of how you feel, in your body and your mind.

And that’s it. That is all there is to it. You can practice this when washing up, hoovering, taking the kids to school, in bed before you go to sleep, watching t.v… anytime, anywhere.

Simple, effective, and potentially life-changing.

I hope you find this useful, and please do let me know if you try this, and your experiences with this marvellous skill.

Blessings be.

The Mundane and Not so Mundane

This post is going to be a bit of an eclectic mix, because of life’s happenings recently, the way I’m feeling and the way my brain is working. I promised myself when I began this blog that it was going to be an on-going account of my life as experienced from the Spiritual along with every day ‘normality’. I have struggled to write anything at all recently, because of the way I have been feeling, but now I want to write, to explain, describe, and reach out to you, to explain my recent experiences.

My doctor did some blood tests on me after I went to see him about my emotional ‘meltdown’. The tests came back absolutely fine – in fact, the doc said that they were the best blood tests he’d seen in a long time. So, not anaemia, or anything else physically wrong with me. It was- is – all emotional/mental. What on earth has caused me, I wonder, to have ‘perfect’ results from the blood tests? I suspect that Reiki may have something to do with this. I can’t prove it, but there is no other reason I can think of that would cause this: I try to eat healthy, but I’m not obsessive about it, I walk a lot – everywhere, in fact, I don’t drive – but do no other exercise. I’m vegetarian, but so are a lot of other people. Yes, I do believe that Reiki, and meditation, have a positive physical impact, and even the idea, the possibility, that these mechanisms could be keeping me in good working order is an encouragement to continue using them.

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Since then I have had my ups and downs – our break away helped a lot – but, again, the doc said that I am doing most of the work myself to get out of the negative cycle – more so than anyone else he has seen, and he ‘is really impressed with [my] progress’. Again, what’s the difference? Why am I able to do this in a matter of weeks, when others struggle? I believe there are a number of reasons for this:

–          A strong, supportive family unit who I am able to reach out to, who understand, and are prepared to just listen to me, and/or help when it is required/needed.

–          My own desire to not be dragged down. I KNOW it’s no good for me personally, and certainly isn’t good for my family, especially my young children. I don’t want them suffering.

–          My ability and desire to express myself creatively. It is so hard to motivate yourself to do anything when you feel down, but just attempting to write poetry, stories – even writing in my journal, ranting – all this created a cathartic effect, helping to ease the stress and negativity.

–          My Spirtuality/Spiritual beliefs. Even when I don’t feel motivated to ‘connect’ in any way, I know that my Guides, the Angels, the god and goddess, the Void, and Reiki energy are all still there… waiting in the wings, as it were. And just knowing this has given me strength.

 

I have been feeling much more positive and relaxed lately, and I’m sure the sunshine has had a lot to do with that. A wave of increasing energy – and also FEAR – FEAR that things aren’t ever going to move forward for me (Fear is perhaps THE greatest motivator to changing one’s life) has enabled me to continue a project that I put aside last year. An on-going project that demands my attention and full focus, and one that is positive and is filled with hope. Picking this up again has created a determination in me that I have not felt for a very long time. This has been its own magic in helping to transform me!

I also reconnected with the Angels and Araianrhod too, the other night. I thought it was about time. I wanted to honour both, for having visited me in their own ways and times, and also to ask a few questions of them. It was a simple affair, a meditation/trance state rather than anything lengthy and complex. I thanked the Angels for being with me, and asked them about creating self-love. About coming from a place of self-love, and to self-love. The idea of self-love is not a selfish one, for the way we feel about ourselves affects the way we act and behave, which then affects others. The answer I got back on this was, to not worry – it was being sorted. Excellent news!

I then turned my attention to Arianrhod. I Thanked her for ‘sending’ me to visit the sea, and to ask her, ‘okay, so what next? What happens now?’ I also wanted Her to know that I just wanted to acknowledge and honour Her, for Her appearance to me was a gift; a surprise unasked for.

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Now I nearly wrote this as a separate post and indeed, it could be one. However I decided in the end that this is all part and parcel of my current journey and experience. This time I did not ‘see’ Arianrhod, but I felt her presence. My hands, resting in my lap, filled with a ball of energy. I had a vision of my arm, upraised, and a silver charm bracelet with silver stars dangling from it being placed on my wrist – yet another gift from this Goddess! I was truly humbled – what have I done to deserve such honour? I wondered. I sent out my heartfelt thanks, and was replied with the ‘idea’ of getting a book about Arianrhod.

It is as though She, the Goddess, is holding herself back from me, yet is telling me that She likes me. Why, I do not know. I feel like I am being led on a new path, or journey… Is she waiting for something from me? Or is she leading me towards something? She is a mysterious figure, one not easy to discover, but obviously, I need to keep working with Her to find out more. So, I have a direction: to find a book about Her. A task harder than it sounds.

Yesterday I took the time to do a Reiki healing on myself. I felt so much better afterwards, so clear and full of energy. And yet – today has been a low day. This has its own lesson for me…

Balance. Life needs to be lived: things have to be done. But healing (Reiki has an accumulative effect), working with the Goddess, and writing, are all ways of healing for me. And I need to incorporate them all in my life, in a balanced way, to continue improving, and get to where I SHOULD be.

English: Yin yang picture Español: Yin yang

English: Yin yang picture Español: Yin yang (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

In the meantime, I’m keeping my eyes peeled for a silver bracelet with silver stars. If you happen to come across one, please let me know!

If anyone has any comments or guidance in respect of Arianrhod, or indeed anything else in this post, please do share!

As always, blessings be.

 

Related Articles:

http://hanaspeaks.wordpress.com/2013/03/30/yin-yang/

http://peacefulvitality.wordpress.com/2013/04/22/yin-and-yang/

http://pentaclesandpastries.wordpress.com/2013/04/12/the-charge-of-the-goddess/

A Personal Experience

English: Logo Connecting Emotional Intelligence

English: Logo Connecting Emotional Intelligence (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

First of all, I apologise for our recent absence. We were offline for a time – shock horror! – and other things have been happening too. Life has been very busy lately, and I’ve had a hard time trying to keep up and catch up! Neometheus is a little busy at the moment, so I am catching up with posting.

I was wondering what to write about – so many things! But I haven’t done anything recently that I can directly share. I could write about Reiki (and I will later), I could write about Easter and its meaning – we did do a ritual for that… but it didn’t feel right. Then I realised what it was I did want to write about, and that is the other reason I have not been blogging.

This is a slightly different post, and in writing it, I hope maybe to reach out to some people and see if this resonates with anyone else. Maybe even help. That’s part of what this on-line community is about, isn’t it?

I have reached a point in life where I have realised that I am actually having a tough time. Emotionally, I am all over the place. In facing what is happening to me fully, I was surprised to realise that I am not the person I thought I was. I am finding things difficult to deal with, and my emotional behaviour has impacted on every part of my life: my family, my work, my inner peace, my joyfulness. There is no direct cause in this change in me. Nothing traumatic has happened. It is simply due, I believe, to a continual build-up of life’s stresses and pressures. To face the fact that I am not coping well with normal, everyday life stunned me. I don’t have a difficult life: my children are perfectly healthy, and very happy. I have a wonderful, supportive partner. I have a job that is secure. Money is tight, but not desperate. We have a roof over our heads. I don’t have to deal with being a carer for a family member, or with ill health. On the surface, it seems as though my life is pretty good.

So why, then, this sudden change? Why this inability to find happiness? Why am I in tears every week over nothing? Why am I snapping and snarling all the time? Why why why is all that goes through my head. This can’t be me – I’M the one that tries to help others – I’M the one who heals, by listening, or advising, or comforting. I’M an empathiser. I’M the strong one. I hold things together. I’m Super-Mum – I CAN do everything! I’ve been through a lot – and I’ve always got through. I manage. So why now? Why this? What’s different?

My other reason for feeling that this mini-meltdown shouldn’t be happening is all the tools that I have at my disposal: I’m an intelligent person – I can rationalise things, think them through, come to a solution. I can meditate to help myself, I can use Reiki, I can ask my deities and my Guardians for help, I can use a tarot reading… all these and more I can do to find a solution and to help me heal. And yet I haven’t, and I don’t. Again-why?

Because emotional behaviour has nothing to do with intelligence, or rational thought. Reacting emotionally, feeling a thing, takes over. And when you feel down… you lack the energy or motivation to do anything. This emotional ‘down-ness’ has nothing at all to do with intelligent thinking. Knowing something doesn’t effect a change, because I’m not motivated to act upon it.

So, I know I have methods I can use to help myself. I am not motivated to use these methods. So how can I help myself? The first stage is full acknowledgement. It’s no use telling myself ‘I shouldn’t be feeling like this’ – what does that achieve? I DO feel like this; this IS happening to me. Acknowledge I am in an emotional state. Let myself feel it. Trying to deny it only adds more stress, because it will create a conflict in the mind, and translate to the body. I believe this is often the reason people experience physical problems.

Secondly, let’s take a look at a few home-truths: I am fallible. I am human, and have, do and will make mistakes. It is inevitable. This does not mean there is anything wrong with me. Everyone has issues to one degree or another, and you never know what someone else is going through. You are not the only one, and it does not make you a lesser person.

Thirdly, I am NOT super-mum! Who is? Don’t believe the adverts and the t.v. shows. Do your best, make sure the children have what they need, and sometimes, that is enough. Who cares if the house is a mess? Who cares if you forget the odd thing? Again, fallibility comes with the territory! Things aren’t always going to get done on time. So what?

What I am saying here is that I do not know why this has happened. I do not know why I am having a meltdown. But not knowing is O.K – all I have to do is accept, acknowledge, and take things one day at a time, and move forwards, slowly, steadily, without expectation or assumption. I think that it doesn’t matter what your situation is, or how good you think things are – or how bad – that anything can happen to anyone, at anytime – and it is all right. It WILL be all right. Everyone has dark times – and reaching out for help is possibly the best thing that you can do. Gaining support is not a weakness, it is a strength.

All the tools at my disposal – I should be using. But the motivation is not there. I am so tired, so lacking in energy that, paradoxically, the time when I should be using them is the time that I can’t find the energy too. This is why it is good to have support around to lean on: Using the tools I have is another way of saying ‘I don’t need any outside help, I can do it by myself’. Maybe this is a lesson to me to go and ask for help – from the ‘real’ world. And it also goes to show that we need our feet planted in this world, we can’t live in the ‘Other’ world all the time – it does take a lot of energy to Journey, Spirit-travel, and the rest of it. In this, as with everything, there must be Balance. Balance is the key to everything, I believe.

I still have not had a chance to visit the sea (See last post re; Arianrhod), but I plan to, I really do – I would not renege on a deal with a visiting Goddess! And perhaps that will wash my cares away!

I hope this gives you some insight not only into my life, but the way life can take us by surprise and overtake us when we least expect it. And I hope that this reaches out to anyone who may be, or has been, feeling something similar. I will keep you updated, and I hope to post something more cheerful soon!

As ever, your comments, insights and own experiences are very welcome.

Blessings be