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Many Plans, Time to Retreat

Firstly, I wish to say a HAPPY THANKSGIVING to all of my American friends. I hope you are all having a wonderful celebration.

Hibernation

Winter is always a strange time for me. I hate the cold, with a passion. Neometheus says I must have been a lizard type creature in another life, because I ‘recharge’ with the sun! Winter makes me sad, tired, and I feel like I just want to hibernate – I really would given half a chance! Apart from the ‘S.A.D.’ diagnosis that many will attribute this to, there is actually a very good reason for the way I feel.

Let me explain something first: I am not Pagan because I chose that as my religion/faith/Spiritual Path/whatever you want to call it. I am Pagan because it is the way I FEEL, deep down inside. I was ‘Pagan’ before I knew that word, the term, the meaning. As a young teenager I always felt on the outside of things, different even from my friends, for a number of reasons. I remember on the walk to school ambling along the roads and looking at the leaves, the trees, the sky, the earth, and really appreciating them, feeling them. Then I came across the word ‘Pagan’ and its meaning, and I thought ‘So THIS is what I am!’ And thus my Path was determined. Paganism fits me like my skin, it is what I am INSIDE, heart and soul.

So – what does this have to do with Winter? Well I, and probably most pagans, are very in tune with the changes and shifts of the Seasons. The weather, celebrations, turning of the Seasons have an impact on me mentally and internally. Here is a simplified explanation:

SPRING – Start of growth, beginning to set up plans, gently awakening, welcoming the return of the Sun and natural life.

SUMMER – very active, plans into full swing, inspiration, ideas and doing, action, happiness, bouncing around, life blooming, sun at its peak giving maximum Vitamin D and thus energy to all life (including us).

AUTUMN – Experience from all the plans, reaping the harvest that has been sown, enjoying the fruits of the labour of Summer, beginning to gently slow down, thinking time, gratitude, satisfaction.

WINTER – Slow down, retraction, retreat as the Sun wanes and natural life withdraws/hibernates, plans stop, energy reserved, reflection, going inwards, contemplation.

This is the cycle of the Seasons – and of me. Obviously it comes and goes, I’m not ALWAYS ‘bouncy’ all of Summer and not ALWAYS bleak during Winter… but I have noticed a pattern over the years that runs parallel with that of the seasons. And I think many people also feel this, even if they are not consciously aware of it. The ‘S.A.D’ (Seasonal Affected Disorder) is not counter to this, but rather I think a scientific explanation of the same thing. We are all part of Nature, no matter how far removed we may think we are, and Nature naturally retreats in Winter, storing and reserving her energy until Spring begins to bring her bounty once again.

Internally, I feel I have already retreated this Winter: I am doing as much as I need/want to and no more. In a way I have been ‘Letting Go’, of that which is not needed – doing extra things for others, wasting energy worrying or stressing, attempting to please others. Now this may sound selfish, but actually it is not – we need to draw our own boundaries, learn when we need to say ‘no’ and when we need our energy for ourselves. And also in so doing, if we often do things for others, then sometimes letting go of this helps them – it helps them to learn to do their own thing without dependency, to draw THEIR own boundaries, and that you may not always be at the beck and call to help. This can be liberating. For me, it is necessary. My energy is currently very low and I need to preserve it for that which is important, needed, required.

Do not misunderstand me: I’m not NOT doing anything else for anyone, at all, all Winter – I am doing what I feel I can/should/want to do for others. But within limits: basically I ask myself the questions ‘Can I do this? Should I do this? Do I want to do this?’ If the internal answer is ‘Yes’, then I do it. But if I want to spend some time in the evening to please myself, then I will do that, rather than running around after others, or worrying about future tasks. I suppose from the outside view, it is a subtle change. From an internal view, it is a big change.

Plans and activities are still there though, my passion may be muted but it is still there – I am like the banked fire: my coals are still glowing, and will continue to, slow but ever-ready, instead of the Fire’s (Summer’s) high, wild hot leaping flames. Last weekend, I attended my first Mind Body Spirit Fair, offering Reiki. Neometheus accompanied me, for company and moral support, and we both thoroughly enjoyed ourselves. It was not very busy unfortunately, but I see that as a lesson in ‘The Universe Never Gives You More Than You Can Handle’: Publicly I can be quite shy. One to one and small social groups I am fine, but public scenarios I still have to learn confidence, and ‘putting myself out there’ as a stall holder in an open event falls under that category for me. However, I enjoyed doing it, and I met some wonderful people, other stall holders, and seeing what everyone had to offer. I was very nearly tempted with a past life regression – but the cost of it just overcame my curiosity! However, I did buy some beautiful Selenite Pillars, which are now proudly sitting on my mantelpiece/altar.

Me at the Mind Body Spirit Fair
Me at the Mind Body Spirit Fair

Selenite Pillars

One thing that was not at the fair was Rune Readings. I have a set of Runes and love them, I find their readings to be deep, many layered, sometimes – most times – profound, and sometimes quite blunt, and always extremely accurate. A lady at the fair who advertised herself as a ‘Seer’ obliquely mentioned me reading the tarot/cards. I didn’t have my tarot there, she picked this out of the ether. Now I have never charged for readings, I’ve never done it publicly – I have only read for friends and friends of friends, when asked. Never for a charge, because somehow, it has never seemed right to me. Neometheus mentioned the Runes in idle discussion, and it has sat with me – until I decided to offer this as a celebration giveaway on my Facebook page Reiki Rise & Shine. This has had a huge response, which was a pleasant surprise for me. So now I’m thinking, if things goes well, if the Readings work as well for others as they do for me, this can be another aspect I can bring to the next Fair that I attend.

Plans: I am planning already for next year – how to expand my business, attending as many Fairs/appropriate events as I can, offering the Rune Readings… and possibly more. Though I am quiet business wise at the moment – no surprise with Christmas around the corner – I have the whole of next year ahead of me, and now is the perfect time for planning, thinking, and learning. So I am quietly excited about having this time in which I can reflect, think, draft plans, and learn and explore the depths of myself, my abilities, and take time to develop and learn further – Spiritually, Shamanically, with the Runes, and so on and so forth.

So, although I hate cold, dark Winter, and would rather have the Sun and warmth and energy, Winter brings us much needed rest (if we heed Her wisdom!) and time for contemplation and reflection. I may be quiet and withdrawn, but I am also excited, and ready to develop and learn for next year.

A Blessed Winter to you – unless you are in the Southern Hemisphere, in which case, I hope you enjoy your Summer!

Blessings be,

Heidi

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A few random thoughts

I thought today that I would share with you some random thoughts of mine. Something slightly different, but I hope no less enjoyable.

JUST FOR YOU

As I was trawling about the city the other day, going into the Mall & seeing everyone strolling past with their multiple little purchase-bags, and the shops with their not so subtle signs of ‘% off’ and ‘ONLY £’, and all the bright displays of all the choices of things to buy, a thought struck me: 

Norwich Castle Mall

Norwich Castle Mall

This consumption, this need to buy new shiny things, this short-lived euphoria we get when we buy something new… is at least partially a psychological conditioning that says ‘I’m not good enough unless I have THIS shiny thing/THE LATEST in that…’ Buying what we NEED is different, but buying because it’s THERE and we are told ‘LOOK! LOOK AT ME! Aren’t I shiny and you want me and need me…?’ We give in to this desire and we feel better just for having something NEW… which soon becomes old, and doesn’t look so good just a few days or weeks on.

WELL WHAT IF – What if I had enough money to set up a shop… I would call it

JUST FOR YOU! 

Just For You ...

Just For You … (Photo credit: joselito.jb33)

 

And you would be welcome to come in, relax in one of our comfy chairs, take the weight off your feet, and have a chat with one of our friendly, empathetic, Here-For-You staff, whose sole purpose will be to see to your comfort & to chat with you if you like. To be a listening ear, or a teller of jokes; to compliment you & do what they can to ensure your self-esteem is nice and strong. Not to flatter; but genuinely and honestly.

Or you can take a seat in our side or back room, with the low lighting and the gentle music, to meditate, or think or watch the projector screen gently flowing through a series of pictures of wild and wonderful nature.

Maybe we could offer you a mini-foot massage, shoulder massage, or even a book of inspiring or thoughtful quotes, or of poetry. And we would offer you a coffee, tea or soft drink during your visit.

 

In short, a SELF-ESTEEM shop! And maybe there would be a flat fee for every visitor, nothing too steep, say £4/5 per visit, so that it doesn’t discount anyone who doesn’t have much money, but the fee will help to keep the shop going – and also prevent people who may want to abuse the service. And hopefully people would leave knowing just how great they are, by themselves, being themselves.

So… what do you think? Would you visit my little shop JUST FOR YOU!?

ENDLESS GREEN

I LOVE these pictures my partner took the other day on our walk to the park. Nature’s shades of green! 

A Park in Green

Wensum Park, Norwich

The Meeting of earth-green and water-green

The Meeting of earth-green and water-green

TURQUOISE

Turquoise

Turquoise (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Lately I’ve begun to see – no, sense – the colour Turquoise during my Meditations and Inner works. It has become so frequent, that I looked it up… and here is what I found:

SPIRITUAL BODY MEANING
Serenity
PeacefulnessHumanitarian independence. The green in turquoise grounds psychic seeing in the heart, and then clear seeing (blue) can result. Responsibility for oneself, as in learning. The turquoise teaches the heart the right direction. The love and beauty in green expressing through the power of blue to create the new transcendental heartcalled Ananda Khanda.

MENTAL BODY MEANING
To trust intuition. Extremely adaptive and efficientUtopian outlookIdealismTeaching through mass communication and foreign languages. Talents for technical things. Attitude of self reliance.

EMOTIONAL BODY MEANING
Intuition
 having to do with feeling and knowingness. All the emotional domain, and its “expression” (the emotions themselves are in yellow and orange). Sympathy and empathyOptimismChildlike in the positive sense of the word. When imbalanced: Technophobia (fear of handling electronic apparatus) versus a talent for it.

Source at the bottom of the page.

Turquoise Lotus

Turquoise Lotus (Photo credit: downing.amanda)

Love, healing, generosity, emotion, feeling , the unconscious , intuition, individual responsibility .creativity , communication, self reliance , independence.
This color has more to do with feeling and creative expression than with rational thought.
  These  colors between  green and  blue  the shades of  turquoise, blue green and or aqua  relate to transformation,  evolution, change, sharing, waves,  metamorphosis,  transmutation, the inner teacher, and the spiritual heart or Thymus Chakra, a transpersonal chakra on the hara line (deeper aura level ) about midway between the heart and the throat. This is a chakra which connects us with energies of spiritual love and mystical communion and the Divine or God concept (however you name it ) as teacher and as  Sacred Lover and beloved.  These are shades that admit us to varied realms of  the trans-dimensional, meaning existence beyond time and space.

Source at bottom of the page

Well, I think that was it, all that I wanted to share with you. I hope you enjoyed these little random snippets, and your thoughts, comments & questions are most welcome.

Blessings be

Heidi

Sources

http://www.energyandvibration.com/colorturquoise.htm

http://pjentoft.com/Turquoise.html